On Fire

I don’t know what it is you’re waiting for, but if you’ve come across this post, and you’re still waiting on the Lord, this is for you…

When I speak of “waiting”, I don’t mean a day or two, not even a week or two, and if I’m being quite honest, not even a year. Don’t get me wrong, there are cases of which the need is more dire, and a week, month, or even a year truly does feel like a lifetime. Although those cases are not to be belittled in any way, today, I’m here to address those of us in waiting for over a year for our hearts' desires to manifest in the land of the living. Desires that we may want more than we may need. You know that thing you are sure to take to the Lord in prayer nearly everyday, yeah that’s the one.

I’m going to try and make this a long story short..

The desire of my heart has been a strong desire of my heart for a little over 14 years now, more than half of my life. In the past I found myself idolizing this desire; desiring it over a relationship with Christ. At the time I didn’t see anything wrong with this behavior, instead I saw something wrong with God and His timing. It took me a while to truly come to Christ, and when I did, figuratively speaking, it was like God had been waiting His whole life for the opportunity to embrace and cultivate me, ultimately transforming me into the woman He’d always knew I could be.

I don’t want you to get scared or discouraged, but I’m still waiting on the Lord, and if I’m being honest, the longer I wait, the stronger my faith in God gets. No, it wasn’t always this way, but I recognize the growth I’ve accumulated since first giving my life to Christ, and due to this growth, my understanding of not just waiting on the Lord, but also of Who God is, and how He operates, has matured. As I look back on the times when I ignored the Lord, I am filled with gratitude because I KNOW He chose to wait for me to come home. He didn’t have to, but He did. 

If you do not have a relationship with the Lord and you’ve come across this post, I can tell you this with everything in me, He’s waiting on you to come home just as He waited on me. 

I'm physically, and most importantly, spiritually a completely different person today, than who I was when I first began seeking God regarding my desire. After 14 years, physical change is inevitable, but any kind of spiritual change is a choice. I chose life with Jesus Christ, and everything changed, including the way I viewed waiting on the Lord. See, God is never late nor is He ever early, He’s always right on time, and Ecclesiastes 3:1 tells us that there’s a time for EVERYTHING, so if you’re still waiting, here’s a question for you: Is there truly anything that can stop the enactment of the Lord’s will? No, so if it hasn’t happened for you yet, that means it is not God’s ordained time, because NOTHING or NO ONE, can interrupt or cancel God’s perfect will for your life.

Today, as I took a stroll around my work place during my lunch, I asked God a question. Not, “what’s taking so long?”, but what was the significance of my waiting season, more or less. The answer is long and complex, so for the sake of time, I won’t get too deep into it. To sum things up, God’s in the details of my entire life, therefore, the word “significance” here is just too broad in that my spiritual growth leading up to this point was exponential, inevitably leaving a long list of individually significant trail points behind. Each significant experience played into the ultimate purpose, or reason for the delay, which was to ignite the flame within. 

It was less about what God could do for me, because nothing’s too difficult for the Lord, and more about me being on fire for the Lord before He ushers me into all that He has for me.

I saw this large crack in the sidewalk as I walked, and my heart sank, I knew that it symbolized the old me. The sidewalk was unrecognizable, initially I thought it was an iguana’s tail. The Holy Spirit then dropped in my spirit that He couldn’t have done what He did on the inside of me, in the amount of time that He did it, if He had given me what I wanted when I idolized it. I was too far gone, I was too broken (like the unrecognizable sidewalk), and I was too dependent on it to mend what was broken on the inside of me. I would’ve failed to give God the glory, and I would’ve destroyed the very thing that was meant to be a blessing; leaving me worse off than I was before.

In order to restore me back to Him, heal me, and allow me to experience fullness of joy in the midst of an answered prayer, the Lord had to make me wait. I didn’t understand before, nor did I appreciate it, but now I know that it was ALL for my ultimate good. I thank God often that He didn’t give me what I wanted when I first wanted it. He truly is a GOOD GOOD Father, and oftentimes, we just misunderstand Him and the way He loves us.

I had to be on fire for the Lord. I don’t know how the Lord intends on ushering you into the manifestations of the desires of your heart, maybe just maybe it’s not His will for you to be on fire for Him before you receive the desire of your heart. Nevertheless, if you’re reading this right now, that means that He wants you to at least begin taking steps towards true transformation through Christ Jesus.

Love you guys! And if you’re looking to take those first steps towards building a relationship with Christ, visit the “Prayers” tab, and read aloud, but mean every word in your heart, the “Confession of Salvation” prayer, and you WILL be saved by the blood of Jesus Christ.